Half of 2019


What's up peeps! Left this blog for so fucking long, probably it's dusty already but yeah, it's cleaning time. Oh god I recalled that everything has been so long since 2018 It's been almost 5 months & i'll be completing my 2nd year of being at this shitty place. Oh yeah, shitty. gotta tell you that life has been miserably tedious & everything is fucked up here.

To be frank, the first half of 2019 hasn't been going well for me. Yeah, from getting fined by the lectures due to my action of fighting for the students' rights, to getting myself in a cold war with almost all my pals here also losing people who once had a significant place in my journey, yeah i know it sucks a lot. 

I've been contemplating why this year had been putting me in lots of situations where I don't have the might & interest to cope with. Probably it's true what people say, "not everyday is your day.". I've started  to realize that it's my downfall now. Everything happens for a reason & I am in a mission where i'm looking for the reason why. Why is it that I'm "slowly starting to lose my momentum of climbing the peak of that mountain," Yeah, maybe it's a part of the journey, or maybe it's already written in the story of my journey or yeah, it's destiny. But for me, life teaches us to never stop questioning everything because the world comprises of conspiracies and mysteries. 

It's never too late for a conversion to be made. I think one of the reason why life has been putting me in this black hole here is because i've been putting the mask on for so long. I'm exhausted of acting, of not being who i genuinely am, of pleasing everyone which then I'm the one who'll be cast off in the end. It's time for me to embrace who Arif Iqmal really is. Let this 1st half ends & the 2nd talks. It's time to resurrect.....

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