2020. A YEAR IT HAS BEEN.

Hey everyone. What's good tho? God, I'm still astonished with the fact that we're already in a new year, a new decade and a new adventurous journey. I mean, wth, time passes so rapid & damn, there you go, we're another year wiser, just like that. Reminiscing to what we've all been through, it's been a tough year. I believe that 2020 had been serving us with assorted kind of appalling moments comprising of anxiety, depression, heartbreaks, stress, tears & tons of craps & shits. But in the midst of all these ghastly times, I believe we too have witnessed some concealed blessings such as idk, we get to spend most of our time with our precious ones like our families, our high-school friends & our pets? Lol. But yeah, for real, I'm eternally grateful for all of them. So, what has 2020 taught me?

- Never have HIGH hopes

Hoping, a word which brings a lot of descriptive meanings. I mean 2020 was a year where "hope" is a word that everyone holds and believes in it. It's fascinating if what we've been desiring for comes to truth. Tell me, who despises something that they've been hoping & wanting for?  It's great & this is where the "but" part comes. Yeah, everyone would love to achieve what they've all been anticipating for but the worst part transpires when we put our hopes up high to the skies & the outcome turns out to be not what we were hoping for. We put so much efforts, determinations & sincerities so that it would work, but then, it crumbles. It's devastating & dismaying. Tbh, I had high hopes for 2020, given the fact that I was 21 on that year too, simply a precise amalgamation. 21 on 2020 but then, I've never thought that it would be one of the most heartbreaking year I've ever had throughout my whole existence. I've learned a lot from hoping last year. I'm not gonna lie, putting our hopes high is heart-rending. It hurts you. A lot. The pain is unbearable.

- Expect for the UNEXPECTED.

"Expecting", just another synonym to "hoping". 2020 had been astounding us with numbers of outrageous news. It all started with the Australia wildfires & it kept serving & testing us, nonetheless who or where ever you are. The biggest highlight would be of course when the whole world went for total lockdown back in March. I mean yeah, relating to my first point just now, I had high hopes for 2020 and who've thought that we would be having a disastrous year right? We had so much plans we were looking forward to. Then, the UNEXPECTED happened. I've never thought that I would we be separated from my friends for 10 freaking months. It's hilarious. (I bet you all look different now). Aite for real, 2020, an unexpected year which consisted of unexpected events. This unforeseen year has taught me that it's crucial for us to expect for the unexpected & that means preparing ourselves with precautions because we might not know what is gonna happen to us in the time coming. Be predisposed.

- APPRECIATE whatever you have now.

This one hits me for real. You know, 2020 has been a year where I truly understand the meaning of "appreciation". It was a year where I believe we are grateful to have whatever we have now. Family, friends, time, money, all of them. My deepest condolences go to those who lost their loved ones throughout the whole catastrophic year. We lost a lot. We even lost ourselves. It was truly heart-breaking. But yeah, 2020 has been a year where I truly appreciate my time with my families and my homies. I'm beyond grateful to have you all as part of this journey. We've spent a lot of time knowing each other. sharing our deepest, darkest feelings also vibing along. I appreciate them all. I've missed my Terengganu friends too. I recalled the moment where I said to this one very special friend of mine back on the 17th March of 2020, "Hey, no worries, it's only gonna be for two weeks. I'll see you very soon." Then the unexpected took place. I shred in tears every time I think of that moment. It's true you all, you'll never appreciate something until you lose it.

So yeah, all in all, 2020 was a hard pill for us to swallow. But one thing that we all should be proud of is, we learned & survived 2020. We did it. We made it through. I'm grateful for all the incidents that happened throughout the whole year because they've opened my eyes & heart to observe and inspect the world thoroughly. It's been a year of misery yet a year that kept on giving and that includes life lessons. I'm not gonna have high hopes for this new year but hear this, I am ready for any kind of challenges & scenarios that is awaiting. Bring them on. 

Last but not least, I would love to wish you all a pleasant Happy New Year. I am looking forward to more adventurous misadventures. Let bygones be bygones. What happened last year stays there.

2020. A year it has been....